Ramblings

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Slightly more than a year back, I had decided to embark on my trip to Korea. It was a dream come true for me after 10 years. The stint overseas had made me understand myself better, taught me many valuable lessons which I wouldn't have otherwise gone through had I chosen to remain in Singapore and start work immediately, and of course, helped me made many beautiful memories.

I had emerged from the stint stronger than I thought, and while I was so full of anxiety during the days leading up to my trip, I was glad that I was worried for almost nothing at the end of it.

Today marks the start of autumn for the Northern Hemisphere, and because of this, I do suddenly miss my days in Korea very, very much. Autumn was undoubtedly the season when I saw Korea at its best and in its full beauty. The gradual change of colours during September became more apparent as the heavy autumn rains came pouring down and the temperatures suddenly plummeted to the low 10s. The myriad of colours that peaked in October was truly a feast for the eyes, and I couldn't help but to wander at God's creation.

If given a chance again, I would like to visit Korea during spring or autumn again. And when that time comes, I really do wish to have somebody whom I can call my own.

I can really act like I don't give a damn so naturally, but it takes enormous effort for me to show that I care and am not unreceptive.

To do so, I need to have courage, face up to myself, and stop hiding in my own shell.

Haiz, that is really easier said than done for me. T_T

P.S. I think I am drunk. This post isn't making any sense. Bye.

Another sleepless night

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琴晚,我又同同事飲咗啤酒。X生又有嚟,而且佢坐喺我旁邊。初初真係覺得有啲尷尬。我哋兩個真係咩都冇講。我哋可以同其他人傾偈,但冇同我哋彼此傾囉。但之後就有傾,好似咩都冇發生過噉樣。

人哋話時間會令你忘記,可能係真嘅喎。

初初見佢入嚟嗰時,我真係有啲緊張,但之後我發現我心跳並冇預期中加速。

可能我真係放開咗,睇開咗。

雖然我心依然有啲啦啦亂,但係唔緊要啦。

以後嘅日子會更加靚,更加好。

P.S. 終於識咗公司嘅另外一個歐小姐。歐呢嗰姓喺星加坡真係好少見。我同佢真係好啱傾。^^

P.P.S. X生亦都好似冇瞓喎。凌晨6點多收到佢嘅短訊。亦都可能係佢早起啩… 唔應該諗咁多。

P.P.P.S. 呢排我喺公司真係有好多嘢做啊。日日都要OT。所以先會喺琴晚飲咁多。但我以後應該唔會飲咁多啩 (希望啦)。真係唔係幾鍾意啤酒,甚至乎有啲憎佢添。._.