蠢死

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今日,我覺得好嬲、傷心、冇用以及緊張,真係要多得呢個人。記唔記得上一次我喺呢度講緊X先生?其實今日係佢喺公司嘅最後一日。亦都係今日,我終於鼓起勇氣問我呢兩個星期嘅疑問。佢對我係咩意思、佢到底係咪學其他人話齋,鍾意我。其實,如果佢係鍾意我嘅,我本來打算試下同佢行埋一齊,因為我發現我鍾意咗佢。我其實用咗全身嘅勇氣問呢啲問題。我成日好似失咗魂噉都係為咗佢。

但可笑嘅係,佢竟然話呢一切都係同事整蠱我哋嘅。我聽咗之後係先感到失落,然之後好嬲。唔通真係係我一廂情願覺得佢鍾意我?如果唔係佢鍾意我先㗎,同事亦都會攞我哋開玩笑?!人哋話女人嘅直覺係好準嘅,但佢嘅答覆就令我不知所謂。可能我真係唔識睇人啩。

我原本想發嘅短訊俾佢,祝佢“身體健康、一路順風”,但連打呢八個字嘅勇氣而家都冇埋。我仲諗住刪除佢電話號碼添。

就係因為你蠢,所以唔識睇人,唔識把握自己嘅幸福。抵你孤單一世。

好彩我冇表白啫,如果唔係我真係會瘀死. ;(

歐小姐,你真係好失敗。

그 남자에게

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It has been almost a month since I have started on my new job in another company. Although the workload is a lot much heavier and I find myself not knocking off at 5.30 pm on the dot most of the time (except when I first started), I find work here more fulfilling and I do actually feel that I truly belong to the company. I do feel very much closer to my colleagues in this new company than back there. And I truly feel that I am learning a lot more here.

The start of my journey in this new company also coincided with my new company's annual Dinner and Dance (D&D). I was half-looking forward to it and half-not-looking forward to it because it was held on the 21st August 2015. I always had the impression that D&Ds are usually held towards the end of the year LOL since there would be a more celebratory mood. But anyway, my worry was unfounded because I did end up really enjoying myself at MBS that night. Gurmit Singh was our host for that night and since I am now under the ME team, I did know how much they had spent to get him over. ._. Dinner ended at around 10.30 pm and we made our way to the karaoke room, where we sang until 2 am. Tired die me hahaha. I couldn't wake up the next day. ;(

Work and bonding also meant that I also had to drink lol. And last night was an example. Last night's session was rather impromptu and I actually agreed to it at the very last minute. And death by Starbucks lol. I was treated to a green tea latte and hojicha tea latte within 2 hours. My stomach was begging me to take mercy.

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사실. 난, 그 남자를 조금식 좋아해졌어요. 난 예쁘고 귀여운 외모가 있는 것이 잘 알잖아. (ㅋㅋㅋ) 그래서 신 회사에서 남자 동료들은 나를 좋아하기가 조금 놀랍지도 않았다. 사실, A씨를 처음 만났을 때 나는 아무 생각이 없었었다. 신입 사원니까 A씨 아마 성격이 너무 좋아서 그냥 친철했다. 단, 우리 처음 만난 날부터 A씨 매일 나랑 동료들이랑 점심을 같이 먹었었다. A씨는 나를 자주 보이는 게 나도 잘 알지만 아직도 아무 생각이 없었었다. D&D밤 때 A씨의 친구가 나에게 A씨는 나를 좋아한다고 말했다. 사실 D&D밤 때 A씨가 아주 멋있고 잘 생겼어. 근데, A씨의 친구들은 항상 농담해서 그 순간, 친구의 말을 내가 믿을 수가 없었다.

이젠, 더 생각보니 나는 A씨를 좀좀 좋아해질 것 같아. 근데 A씨가 지금 나를 피하고 있다. A씨가 지금 나에게 화날 것 같아.

어떻게?? 지금 내 마음은 너무 섭섭해. ㅠㅠ