Disappointment

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It is during times like these that I really feel like giving up. I thought I had given my best, but apparently others have it better (timing, luck) than me. It is during times like these that I really feel inadequate and small. To be honest, I have no idea what went wrong this time round. That sucks even more and all I can feel is just regrets, regrets and regrets over why I am so inadequate in comparison to others. T^T

Is it time to give it all up? I don't know what God has in store for me. I don't even know how I should live my life now... When I look around me, my peers, colleagues and friends all have plans for their lives and are working towards them. For me? Yes, I have dreams. But the dreams have gone unfulfilled, and may continue so, just because I'm not good enough for my dreams to be fulfilled.

I want to continue dreaming and believing, but real-life circumstances are making it so hard for me now. I want to continue believing and trusting in God to help me overcome my inadequateness and give me directions, but right now, I don't even feel that He is by my side anymore.